Not Really Here-Part One

That is what it feels like.  Like I am not really here, but every time I think that, I find myself still here.  Still on this ship.  And this is not your ordinary ship.  It is a space ship.  A ship of exploration.  I do not know how I really got here.  Kate, that is Kate Zanely has tried to explain it to me over and over again.  She tries to break the science of temporal mechanics into terms that I can understand, or at least what she thinks I can understand.  Let’s face it, I am just not a scientist and I do not know much about the topic beside what I have gained from various science fiction stories and shows.  Those are all fiction, though,  and not all concepts in them are actually proven or even possible.

I am not really sure why I have been brought here.  I was not brought here by the people on this ship.  They found me and figured out what had happened.  They saved me from that evil man.  I guess I am getting a little ahead of myself.  Least to say, I am somewhat safer on this ship.  As of now, though, I am not sure if I will ever be able to go back home.  They say that the technology used to bring me here is very dangerous and difficult to control.  I wonder then, why that man would risk something so dangerous for me.  I am a nobody.  I have never done anything in my life that was great.  Unless it was something I was going to do but I find that to be highly unlikely.  So why me?  Why am I important enough?

It doesn’t make much of a difference now if I knew the reason.  I am already here.  It would have been courteous for him to tell me but whatever.  I guess time will tell.

It is weird because being here means that my family, friends, and everyone I knew is dead.  It doesn’t feel like it though.  It just feels like I will not be able to see them for a very long time.  It is sad still but not in the same way.  Maybe it just hasn’t sunken in yet.  Plus, I have been so busy trying to get used to life here.  I haven’t had a ton of time to think.  That is why I thought it would be good to write about it.  Just to help me think all of this through.

Sam